Let It Go! Let It Go!
Easier said than done! Ha! This #letting #go stuff is everywhere these days: songs, books, memes, frozen movies, and God knows I say and hear it all the time. It's fashionable. However, I am much better at #holding #on than letting go. Oh yes, baby: I hold on to past events, relive them regularly, also clothes that don't fit me anymore or never fitted (even better), and disappointments from a long time ago. I am also good at holding on to my fat around the belly, so good that I even add to it just in case. The best definition I found is:
"Letting go means being willing to allow life carry you to a new place, even a deeper, more true rendition of self. Holding on means trying to push life into the place of your making or be damned." (www.psychologytoday.com)
I do know that when the decision to let go comes from me, it has a more significant #effect and #growth might happen. This week, I have been observing myself: what I am letting go off; what I hold on to; and when the outside is pushing me to do it. This is what I found: I let go of the need to #know when our daughter will have a place in our local school, but I am holding on the idea that she will go to school someday soon. Circumstances have forced me to homeschool. I am letting go of #fat as it doesn't serve me anymore. That will take a while. Joy! I am letting go of clothes that don't fit or wear anymore. I am sure some people can relate to that. I am holding on to #hope that one day I am going to organise #events, freely without the nightmare of safeguarding measures related to COVID 19 or any other virus for that matter. I very much hold on to the fear of #death. I am not #Zen yet. But soon. It's just around the corner. It's only a massive corner, people! Some time ago a read this beautiful #poem about letting go, by Rev. Safire Rose. It ticked all the boxes for me. My favourite line is:
"There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn't good, and it wasn't bad. It was what it was, and it is just that. In the space of letting go, she let it all be."
Maybe you have something in the closet that doesn't serve you anymore. Perhaps start with something simple, as I did. I let go of my most beautiful coloured trousers that I have never worn (see photo above). They sat in my closet for two years in the hope that I will lose weight. Every #summer season, I would take them out and try them on. To my big #surprise, they never fitted. I held on both my trousers and #weight. So now I decided to let go of both. It's baby steps and some days are better than others, but that's OK. Patience is also something that I need to #learn. For anyone who wants to get closer to the idea of letting go there is a great book, I am reading now, called Tao Of Letting Go, by Bruce Frantzis. It gives plenty of practical ways of dealing with blockages, how to train the monkey mind, dissolving emotions, shock, pain, fear, and depression. Meditation is the core practice, of course. This week I was followed by one line from the book.
"If you can deal with something, deal with it. If you can't deal with it, don't beat yourself up because you are not a god who can do everything. "
Hope you find inspiration in your life to let go of whatever burdens you and pulls you down. Life is to short to carry all this shit around. Love, Nora